Recently we were given an assignment called the vision project. In short the project was to take our vision (What we feel God has called us to) put it into two formats, the first an article between 5- 10 pages long with pictures and type settings. The second is a multimedia presentation.
When I began my research for my vision project (of which I will post here soon, don't worry) I was so overwhelmed. The statistics, the facts and the faces of victims of suicide and depression seemed to drown me and I couldn't wade through it. I became physically sick, nauseous to the point of having to stop and intentionally concentrate my entire being on something else.
When I finally got all of my facts done I sat down to write the article it felt like I'd taken on to much.
How can one person, one team, one idea save an entire culture?
In my heart I know that one person (Christ) can, one team (the body of christ) can, one idea (hope) can change a nation, a culture and anything that ever stands in the way of God. But in my head it seems so daunting.
I remember a conversation with God from before I left home. When everything seemed to be upside down in my life and It was almost like I couldn't take any more.
"God! How much more do I have to take to whole!? Are you trying to really kill me? How much do I have die!?" I cried out to him while cleaning a mirror in the downstairs bathroom, amazing how he chooses the funniest of times to talk to you.
"What doesn't kill you makes you stronger." He replied to me, always so calm. If he was a physical person he'd stress me out with how calm he is.
"How strong do you want to make me?" Of course my language was stronger, angrier but God can take it, he can calm me down, he's calm when I'm not.
"I promised you a nation didn't I?" He finished the conversation with a question. He knew he had promised me a nation, he promised me in his word that the nations would be given to his children. He promised me through his prophets and his promised me in the still whisperings of my heart.
He answered me with a question because the only answer I could give with out lying was "Yes and Amen."
Through the vision project, through the promises and reminders of God I realize I'm taking on a big task, but I'm taking on a blessed one.
Right now it feels like I'm running a marathon in ill fitting shoes, but I'll grow into them.
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